Full-Blown Pain: My Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid shocks, like electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are managed with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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